I have to keep posting. If the intervals between these articles are too vast, the writing style changes too quickly between them and readers will be upset.

Here is a lesson. The fact is, there are a lot of things I really should do but haven’t gotten around to doing. Furthermore, when I am stuck, I can change something and I will be somewhere else. Procrastination is an opportunity.

Over the past few months I think I’ve become more attentive to the effects of my bringing about change. I wonder if it’s important.

Looking back, I suspect I had attitude which reflected both carelessness and intention. I accepted my state and tried to make the best of it. I believed I would, one day, end up where I wanted to be and, in the interim, all I had to do was wait and be myself and really enjoy that. And it worked. But, I don’t think that will work anymore. I think a new dimension has injected itself into my life – or, at least, my imagination of it. There are new colours and feelings that I do not know what to do with. Thoughts about control and cause and effect. There are new ways of thinking about things that I previously had no concern over. I’d like to say that it’s fantastic and it’s brilliant. But, I don’t know what to make of it. Or if that’s even how it works.

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